Forever

Give me a little while.
Give me a few days.
Maybe you should just give me a few months?
Give me enough time to sink down to your level.
Sink down to the level to which you reside upon.
Who are you to talk to me?
Who are you to look in my direction?
Who are you to even think of murmuring a 'hello'?
Don't think I can't remember all the pain.
No, it doesn't just go away.
It will always remain.
Like an old black & white picture show.
Placed on repeat for years to come.
Forgiveness only goes so far.
Sorry to say that there is none left for you.
The damage has been done my old friend.
What's left for you to do?
Nothing but sit back and enjoy the show.
For I am the opening act tonight.
Now watch me perform my biggest stunt yet.
Watch me disappear...
Forever.

Through the Looking Glass

There she goes again with her normal everyday rambling.
She hardly ever makes any sense.
She opens her mouth and the words fall out like a bomb dropping from Enola Gay.
Her words form sentences I don't care to listen to...
Seems the more I listen to her rant and rave the more bitter I feel.
The more I hear her speak of the world and it's unfair madness the more depressive I become.
It seems she doesn't really know how to keep quiet.
Her mouth flies open and everything comes out with no reguards.
She is quiet now as she begins to paint her face.
The only time she ever truly looks happy is when she is painting over all her imperfections.
Brush stroke by brush stroke she applies her mask.
Once she is done, she takes one final glance into the mirror and gives herself a half hearted smile.
The smile she gives so often every single day.
I watch her as she slides into her daily attire and adjusts the buttons.
Before walking out the door she turns around to glance at me.
There in the mirror we meet eye to eye...
Like every single day.
She doesn't say anything this time as she stares.
Turns around and leaves to face the world we both know is tearing her apart.

Brick by Boring Brick <3

She lives in the fairy tale Somewhere too far for us to find Forgotten the taste and smell Of the world that she's left behind It's all about the exposure the lens I told her The angles are all wrong now She's ripping wings off of butterflies Keep your feet on the ground When your head's in the clouds Well go get your shovel And we'll dig a deep hole To bury the castle, bury the castle Go get your shovel And we'll dig a deep hole To bury the castle, bury the castle Ba da ba ba da ba ba da So one day he found her crying Coiled up on the dirty ground Her prince finally came to save her And the rest you can figure out But it was a trick And the clock struck 12 Well make sure to build your home brick by boring brick or the wolf's gonna blow it down Keep your feet on the ground When your head's in the clouds Well go get your shovel And we'll dig a deep hole To bury the castle, bury the castle Go get your shovel And we'll dig a deep hole To bury the castle, bury the castle Well you built up a world of magic Because your real life is tragic Yeah you built up a world of magic If it's not real You can't hold it in your hand You can't feel it with your heart And I won't believe it But if it's true You can see it with your eyes Or even in the dark And that's where I want to be, yeah Go get your shovel And we'll dig a deep hole To bury the castle, bury the castle Go get your shovel And we'll dig a deep hole To bury the castle, bury the castle Ba da ba ba da ba ba da...

Searching for Myself <3

I've been traveing this road for a day or so,
maybe even a year or two? Who knows?
Time seems to stand still after so long. Where have I gone?
It feels as if I have been driving for miles on this deserted hardtop.
Will I ever reach the destination or will I hit a dead end.
I've been trying to find her, I know she's out here somewhere!
She took off one day, told me she had had enough!
Packed all her things, headed out the door and was never to be heard from again.
Yet, here I am searching for her.
Sometimes I think I see her, she appears beside me, but only for a split second.
Sometimes I think I hear her voice, loud inside my mind, but only for an instant.
I know if I keep searching, in time, I will find her.
Until then I drive thing long and lonely deserted road searching for Myself.

it's the same routine...

it's the same routine every day...
wake up.
breathe.
think of him.
breathe.
miss his voice.
breathe.
pray for him.
try to dream.
close my eyes.
see his face.
try to survive.

it's the same thing,
every single day.
since he walked out the door.

this house was once full of love.
laughter.
passion.
adventure.
wonder.

no, now this house is filled with sadness.
memories.
regrets.
misery.
loneliness.

as i now lay here in the darkness of the night,
i see his face beside me.
those blue eyes that could always take my breath away.
i see his lips move in for a kiss.
i taste his sweetness.
i hear his whisper in my ear,
"i love you".

but as i open my eyes,
i see nothing but the darkness that now surrounds me.
engulfs my body and drags me under.
he is no longer here.

but i am.
i am here,
left alone.
to remember...
everything.

the alarm clock goes off...
it's the same routine every day...
wake up.
breathe.
think of him.
breathe.
miss his voice.
breathe.
pray for him.
try to dream.
close my eyes.
see his face.
try to survive.

The Truth About The Disney Girls.

First Miley Cyrus,

Now Vanessa Hudgens!

Next it will be Ashley Tisdale!

Whatever the situation,

these girls aren't just possing for racy photos like everyone is viewing it as,

these girls are looking out for themselves and their futures.

Okay, now really, do you think these girls want to be stuck in their Disney rut

for the rest of their lives?!

NO!

They will get older and the Disney audience will not be able to relate to them,

so then what comes next?

These girls don't want to live being known as the goody two shoes on the Disney channel!

No way, no how is that what they want!

They want to advance their careers, even if it means getting naked and taking photos!

They want to appeal to older audiences, specifically males. If they want to go further with their careers, they have to give more than dancing around on the Disney channel!

People act like these girls have committed the biggest crime on the planet and all they did were pose in racy photos. At least for Miley's sake, they were more tasteful than most! Still, people are overreacting a bit to these photos. Sure, it doesn't look good on their now booming Disney career, but later on they will blow up as new sex symbols for their new age groups.

I guess what is even more stupid is the fact that these girls act ashamed and appologize with all of their hearts on how they should not have done it! We learned our lessons! Yea right! Whatever girls, you know exactly why you did it and you are not sorry. They know if it could advance them for the future, they will do it.

Plain and simple.

That's the truth about the Disney girls,

because they won't be Disney girls forever,

and when that day comes, they need something to fall back on.

Life: Take 10?

Have you ever just been sitting and thinking of an old friend?
You think, wow I have not seen them in years!
The next day you are walking down the street, and what do you know?!
You run right into that friend you had just been thinking about.

You sit with a funny thought in the back of your mind.
You think, wow I hope that never happens and you outweigh the possibilities of it ever occurring.
A few days later, guess what?!
It happens! That thing you didn't want to happen just happened.

It kinda makes you sit back and think, hmmmm have I lived this life before?
What if that were true?

What if we are on replay?
What if our life has just been put on "repeat"?
We are born, we live, we die...we are born, we live, we die.

Gives you something to think about.
I think it's funny how these things often occur.
The "so called" Déjà vu, what if it is really because you have lived before and are just re-experiencing it for who knows how many times?!
Sure, everyone says Déjà vu can be explained as being a mythical thing all within your brain, it's complied with dreams, hopes, wants, needs, etc. They just all come together and if your mind when something occurs, you think wow this has happened before, and they want you to believe it's just a coincidence dealing with your brain and all your thoughts.
What if it's not though?
What is Déjà vu, is simply you re-experiencing and experience for the 10th, 30th, 100th time?

Gives you something to think about.

Now I'm not saying this is how I believe,
however, I am also not saying that this doesn't make me think a little differently about the way the life process runs it's course.

No one should every think they have everything figured out.
You never know the truth fully, so why rule out this possibility?